What turning 26 feels like.

11:29:00 PM Ayesha Farhad 25 Comments

So this Sunday, I turned 26. It feels a bit awkward. Am I an adult now? Or not? How do I seriously make it stop?

I have never been fond of birthdays. Never ever. I used to get excited about it when I was a child but as soon as I entered my teenage years, I realised that birthdays are not really my thing. They are kind of depressing. I mean I am absolutely fine a few days before my birthday. I am all happy and chirpy but on the day, I want to bawl my eyes out. And I have absolutely no idea why.

So, this year my husband kept asking me what I wanted for my birthday and I kept telling him that I really did not want anything. But then later, I thought, I could splurge on a good day of pampering. That is not materialistic, right? So after dropping Azlan to his school on Friday, off I went to a long day of pampering myself.

I got a haircut after 3 years, so that was pretty fantastic. I usually trim my hair myself every few weeks and ever since my previous hair dresser went off the radar, I don't really know who to trust. A friend of mine recommended Rush. So I booked an early appointment and had to calm my nerves because I really love my long hair. So, initially, I wanted to go for a fun long bob but I had my doubts, so I ended up getting a layered haircut and a fringe. And I could not have been more happier. The stylist did a great job and I have been recommending her to my friends ever since.




After getting my haircut, I went for a little stroll in the mall which ended up with a bank balance in minus (but husband decided to be extra generous and reinstate that amount). I got myself a few make up items and a few skin care bits.

Since Azlan goes to school for 2 sessions in a day, I decided to get myself a manicure and a pedicure. So I called the lady and told her that I will be coming in for a session. My feet were in such a bad state that I ended up staying for a proper hour.

This pedicure was the best thing ever!
On Sunday, my husband 'helped' in making a happy breakfast. I say happy because in our house, breakfasts are always rushed. Azlan is always saying 'no more' and I am quickly gulping down tea before it gets cold again and my husband is stuffing his face with cereal so he can leave for his job. So a happy breakfast on Sunday is a must thing for us. We spent the entire day slagging around the house and finally decided to go to dinner. I wanted to go somewhere nice and formal but usually all the halal fine dining areas are not child friendly, so we ended up having a good food coma-type dinner at Toros in Harrow.

A little surprise birthday present.
No birthdays are complete without a cake.
All in all, it was a good '26th birthday' day. But being 26 is not really what it feels like. There is so much I wanted to do in life and so much I wanted to accomplish but looking back, I feel I have not even lived up to half of what I expected myself to do. If you had asked me 6 years back about what I wanted to do, I would have straight up told you that I wanted to work in a fashion magazine. I wanted to be the next Meryl Streep of the fashion world. But sadly that did not work out. I keep being told that I quit whatever I start. I have not really found the passion for doing something. I work hard at something and then I lose sense of direction and then I am back to square one.

A little birthday #FOTD 
So hopefully, by next year I would have achieved something with my blog. Because I have never been more serious about it than ever, even though I have no friends or family actually supporting it. So here is to trying to watch where I am going and actually be sober about what I want to do and who I want to be in life.

Since Eid was next day, here is some temporary henna from Anoush.

25 comments:

  1. First off your hair looks great, and I love the temporary henna tattoos.

    I am not sure how 26 is supposed to feel either, but I honestly do not feel like an adult. I still feel like a child. It may be because I am still a bit immature. Not immature as in I go out drinking and partying. I have never done that. My husband and I have a house and I own my own car. Even though I am four years away from being 30. I have no idea what the big deal is. It's just a number. I imagine when I am 70 years old(if I can get around) I am still going to be dressing up as an elf during Christmas and putting sticky notes on people's cars.

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  2. Happy Birthday. My ideal birthday is having a relaxing pamper without the kids so it looks like you had the perfect day

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  3. I'm almost 23 and with time moving so fast I know 26 will be here before I know it. There's a lot I want to accomplish within the next three years (my blog being one of them) and it's daunting but also exciting!

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  4. I understand what you are feeling. I turned 26 in May and I was feeling down about it too. I thought I would have found a full time job and travelled more but that hasn't happened yet. Good things will happen though.

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  5. Age is but a number, take it from someone in their 30's, enjoy life and grab every opportunity you can x

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  6. Well first, Happy Birthday and second you have beautiful hair! Make the most of your twenties. I just posted today about turning 30 soon. Now that's a weird feeling!

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  7. Happy birthday. Love the hair. That Marc Jacobs perfume is the best.

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  8. Your hair looks amazing and that henna work is fab. Glad you had a good birthday x

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  9. Happy Birthday. It looks like you have had a good one. I love you hair so pretty and that henna looked fabulous!

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  10. Happy Birthday, it sounds like you had an amazing time and got some great gifts

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  11. Happy birthday - I'm glad you got to enjoy that pedicure and happy breakfast! :)

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  12. Loved the henna design - stunning. And your hair looks pretty hot too! Your breakfast routine made me laugh - it's exactly the same as mine - trying to not let tea go cold & rushing round...!

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  13. Happy birthday! I love your haircut, looks great and it really suits you! :)
    http://lilinhaangel.com/

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  14. Happy belated birthday :)
    Looks like you had an amazing day with lovely gifts and a bit of pampering, perfect! x

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  15. Seize the day! I still don't feel my age. I'm an adult, right?? lol

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  16. Happy Birthday! I wish all your dreams come true!

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  17. Happy 26th! I turned that this year also so know how you feel - don't worry it's good to treat yourself once in a while and your husband is very nice to have helped out. I'm sorry to hear you're not getting much support and the best of luck with the blog stuff x

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  18. Turning 30 was a horrible feeling for me. I'm not sure even yet I feel like I think an "adult" should! Happy Birthday!

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  19. Happy Birthday, loos like you had a great day! Your hair looks lovely. Sounds like the perfect day :)

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  20. those are really gifts! my 26 birthday is also soon and I have the feeling that although it will be special, it will be much more "modest" lol x

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  21. Happy birthday, and you look amazing for 26. Your hair looks fabulous I want long hair myself but just don't have the time to care for it. Think I may do this for my birthday now though a day to myself ah bliss x

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  22. It sounds like you had a lovely birthday. Your hair looks amazing xx

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  23. Your hair looks great and turning 26 is no biggie-- ask someone who turned 28, still don't feel like an adult ;)

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  24. Ayesha your hair looks great!!! And belated happy birthday!!! :) I turn 26 on Oct 3 too! - Deepika

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  25. I'm 23 and it feels so old tbh... Wondering what 26 will feel like for me.

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